How can I sit here and pretend
Pretend like I don’t care
When all I do is wonder
Pretend that it doesn’t hurt
Pretend that I am not broken on the inside
Show the world that I am better off without you
I can do my eyebrows and throw on lashes
I can get dressed up and fake a smile
Pretending will soon become easy
One day I’ll wake up and it will come naturally
But deep down I know I will never be okay
I will never be able to genuinely smile
Nothing will ever be the same again
If you’re reading this
I hope you take in every word in the poem
Because I write about you remember
To the world, I may look happy
but If you know me like you say you do
You should be able to see right through my disguise
I’m praying that our love wasn’t a lie
Because that would make things so much harder
But I have to pretend
I hope it makes me stronger