Pretend

How can I sit here and pretend

Pretend like I don’t care

When all I do is wonder

Pretend that it doesn’t hurt

Pretend that I am not broken on the inside

Show the world that I am better off without you

I can do my eyebrows and throw on lashes

I can get dressed up and fake a smile

Pretending will soon become easy

One day I’ll wake up and it will come naturally

But deep down I know I will never be okay

I will never be able to genuinely smile

Nothing will ever be the same again

If you’re reading this

I hope you take in every word in the poem

Because I write about you remember

To the world, I may look happy

but If you know me like you say you do

You should be able to see right through my disguise

I’m praying that our love wasn’t a lie

Because that would make things so much harder

But I have to pretend

I hope it makes me stronger